She held his hand as he slept, her eyes searching his face lovingly for signs that he was waking.
She didn't see the years upon his skin, the oxygen mask that helped him breath or the white sterile wall of the room he rested in.

She saw the young man whose smiles was for her alone, the tall dark handsome soldier she danced with every night at the Palace.  She saw her husband as he held her tenderly as he lay her upon their bed kissing her neck softly.

She saw the father of their children as she looked out from the kitchen window watching is happy laughing babies with golden hair that glistened in the sun.

She smiled to herself touching his grey hair softly.  Her fingers tracing his lips and then touching hers.
Always she whispered to him.  The nurse touched her shoulder and said in a soft voice "He is gone Mrs May" "Not gone" she said just waiting.

What I Forgot

What I forgot was death is permanent, and what I wanted to say cannot be said.
What I wanted to hear cannot be heard, if I close my eyes can I speak to the one I forgot.

What I forgot, was to tell them I loved them enough when they were alive.
To spend time with them, to listen to them.  What I forgot was they would not be here forever.

What I forgot, was that I told myself to never forget that time is short.
Tell those you love that you love them.

What I don't forget now having learnt from forgetting:
Is to kiss my children each night, tell them that I love them each day
To smile
To forgive

Will I eventually forget who I am, maybe
But then, what will I forget I have forgotten
Or if I remember what I have forgotten
Did I actually forget........

A moment in time

I knew him a moment in time

Where the sun begin to shine

Where the rain kissed my lips

Where the breeze caressed my skin

He touched my heart, it began to beat

He touched my eyes, they saw once more

He whispered in my ears, they listened for him

He held my hand, and I was safe

I knew him a moment in time

Where I loved him forever

Where his arms embraced me

Where I drank deeply from his soul

I knelt at his feet and I closed my eyes

I rested my head upon his lap

I felt the rope against my skin

I bent my head and I was bound to him alone

I knew him a moment in time

I watched him walk away with my false smile

My heart broke and screamed for him to stay

I closed my eyes, the darkness called my name

Did You Mean

Did you mean what you said

When you looked into my eyes

And told me that you loved me

While you smashed my heart into a thousand pieces

Did you mean what you said

When you held me in your arms

And told me I was the only one
While you crushed my soul, never to be healed

Did you mean what you said
When you kissed me with fire and passion
And told me I was forever and always yours
While you made love to another again and again

Did you mean what you said
Because your actions screamed NO
While you touched my face and my heart
And your lips whispered yes

Did you

Sweet Submission

She feel his eyes upon her, she feels the strength in his presence

She feels the hands of this mortal God placed upon her breast

For one fleeting moment the hands are gone, she panics and is lost

The hands return and with a gift, a circle of love and devotion

The hands gently cup her chin and raise her eyes to view his face

She trembles, she feels her eyes well and spill over with her tears

She wonders, how can the mortal God bare to touch her

He leans towards her, she feels his breath upon her neck, she is still

"What is it you want Girl?" his words run through her like hot steel through ice

She raises her eyes for one fleeting moment to see the mortal God

Her legs tremble and she falls to her knees, her arms rise to meet the sky

Her wrists kiss as she leans towards this mortal God's boot

"To be released Master, to know peace" she cries as the years of pain rip through her

He touches her face with his fingers, and gently slips his collar around her neck

She hears the snap of the lock.

She is free.

Friend

she looked into his eyes and smiled softly, she reached out and took his hand. My Friend she whispered, "you are the wind the lifts me when I am down, you are the sun that warms me when I am cold, you are the walls that protect me from the danger, and you are the shining star that helps me find my way home when I am lost". ..Im honoured to call you my friend.

The Song

She rested her head upon his chest and heard his heart beat. It was a song she loved to hear. It sang to her, called her name, whispering sweet words into her ears. It held her captive, entranced and drew her slowly, willingly into his world. Her breathing became slow and gentle like a summer breeze in the willows. His lips brushed against her hair as only a lover's can. “Will you?” he whispered, “Forever” she replied.